Creating deadlines for yourself is hard.
Keeping to them is even harder.
Which is where I find myself at the moment. I promised myself that by May 20th I would have sent off my manuscript to agents. That I would – without fail – click that send button and embrace the responses, whatever they might be.
I am just over a week away from my self-imposed deadline and I find myself…stalling. Now all I want to do is rip my novel into tiny pieces and then stitch it slowly and carefully back together again. I keep lingering over paragraphs that I previously enjoyed and tweaking sentences that I thought were finished.
Is this just cold feet? Or is this me, telling myself that my manuscript is simply not ready yet.
I have a week off from my “proper job” next week and I am going to take the time to hunch over my novel, ironing out edges and hopefully smoothing over the rough-spots.
And re-writing the synopsis.
Oh how I hate the synopsis.
Maybe next week will show me just how ready I am, maybe I will hit my deadline or maybe I shall create a new one.
Regardless, I will eventually have to stop prevaricating and I will have to reach a point where I must take the risk and decide enough is enough.
Eventually I will have to click SEND.
Wish me luck 🙂